Me doing some thoughts♥♥

My emotion today---> SAD :( + rational~i think....

I wish:
~to be a better person...hope i will~someday!! though i am only one person n i know i cant do everything,but somehow..i can still do something to my life. I'm sure there's something i can do..hmm(sigh*)..also i wish to be an entrepreneur in the future,n make a lots of money hahaha,but still, at wat field??uhhuu..seems that i'm not ready enough for the future..sad!! :(
I wish,i'm able to be more serious wit my life, i've done taking my life for granted tis few years..huhu..

I'm thinking:
~of doing something different-->but the fact is there's no much different in me..hey..it's me again~the same old-me...i'm genuinely set tis determination(used to exactly)~to lose weight tis few months,but still..i ended up become more n more chubby..huhu..i feel very bad about it ,i never succeed in fulfilling my dream,n i hope tis won't be forever..i need some space to breath freely..i need to become more useful..i need strength to overcome my weakness. So tis is wat i'm thinking now~i have to be strong..chaiyok3!!!

I dream of:
~having a peaceful vacation n a very delicious meals ever ♥ i'd love to..ahahha...but where on earth m i going to??? i'm now at a very unsteady financial status..huhu..i wish i've lots of money rite now so i can go on wit my dream..just my luck then..sad :(

sadly.unfocused.confused.~ruth.m.

I was tagged by Jenny~again..haha*

Last beverage → iced tea
Last phone call → Ayie Last text message → Hagman
Last song you listened to → When You Tell Me That You Love Me~Westlife Ft Diana Ross
Last time you cried→ a month ago..huhu..

HAVE YOU EVER:
=Dated someone twice → noo..
=Been cheated on → yes
=Kissed someone & regretted it → nah.
=Lost someone special→ yes

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
=Fallen out of love → hmm..
=Laughed until you cried → yes.
=Met someone who changed your life → no.
=Found out someone was talking about you → yeah...
=How many people on your top friends do you know in real life? → all of them.
=Do you have any pets →no. m quite scared wit furly animals..huhu..
=Do you want to change your name → i did ever thought bout that once(b4 la..hehe)~but now
m so grateful to be given the name by my daddy..thanks dad.
=What time did you wake up today → very late..haha..tp ku terjaga byk kali,apakah
kaitannya..haha..ngeee~
=What were you doing at midnight last night → updating my blog la..apa gik..
=Name something you cannot wait for → GAWAI!!!!<<<---kan Jenny
=The last time you saw your father→ on January 6th..masa ku mok balik kolej..huhu
=What's one thing you wish you could change→wars to peace
=Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → yes.
=What's getting on your nerves right now →nothing..
=What's your name → Ruth Marin
=Primary School→ SRK Tabuan Jaya,SRB St Paul Bunuk,SK RPR Batu Kawa
=Middle/Secondary School → SMKBK,GRSS
=Hair color → not so sure..huhu..coz it used 2 be black but it does glowed into something
brownish...
=Long or short →shoulder cut..
=Are you a health freak → haha!nope.
=Righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS :
First surgery → never.
First piercing → cant recall..
First best friend → Marlene.miss u gurl..huhu..
First sport you joined → badminton~same la we 2 Jen..
First pet → my mum cats kot...she really loves cats.
First vacation → Pantai Pandan kot ngan famili n sumuk(i was 12 back then)

CURRENTLY :
Eating → soto~leftover kmek org tgahr tadik,so why waste..haha..
Drinking → iced milo..grlup*
Waiting → msg from someone..

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? →of coz.kids are cute...
Want to get married?→want3..cant wait the day...
Careers in mind? → lalalallala..

HAVE YOU EVER :
=Kissed a stranger → eurghh..never!!!
=Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol →nope..dont like the taste..
=Lost glasses/contacts → nope.
=Ran away from home →nope.
=Broken someone's heart → rarely..i just cant satisfied all people at one time..
=Been arrested → nope
=Cried when someone died → i do.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → of course
Miracles → yessss...
Love at first sight → hmmm...sometimes~
Heaven → yes.
Kiss on the first date→ ahahahaha..
Angels → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes.=)
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → nope.
Do you believe in God? →yes~ i really, really do.

• * fairy n those who read tis..ehehe..hugs
  

Babe + Sumuk<<<

ku xtauk mok post apa koh,hehe..tp i think tis pic is cute,hahhaa..i wish i could find someone who really love me n end up mcm pic tok in the future hehehe~bahagia la tek..tp hidup tok cam roda juak..very hard to predict our future [eugh..seram aku ngenang eyh] nowadays byk kita dgar couples,got married n divorced..hmmmm...apa mok jadi la kan???huhuhu...adakah laki yg curang @ perempuan x pande jga laki??hmmm...sama2 la kita fikirkan....




lots of love: ruth.m*

Huh..girls' favourite quiz,ahha~

Love Survey: You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!

SHOOT! :)~<--- Jenny sayin'

1.Are you currently in a relationship?

=yes.......

2.Have you ever been given a teddy bear?

=yes. a big puppy teddy, 3 teddy bears given by my lovely frenz~

3.What are your all-time favorite love story movie?

=hmmmm~blank3<---no comment

4.Are you in love right now?

=yes duu..would u marry me??!! hahaha....

5.Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate?

=yes i do.

6.What's your current problem?

=no ploblerm...winkz~ST tongue twist..

7.Have you ever had your heart broken?

=yes..fragile heart

8.Your thoughts ON online or long distance relationships?

=hmmm...depends on how both person managed their relationship...

9.Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

=no..friend remains friend to me..

10.how many kids you want to have?

=as many as i wish...hehhe..cute ba baby..

11.What is/are your favorite color/s?

=white,purple,etc.~coz i got too many colors i like..hehehe..

12.Who is your celebrity crush

=duh~pun bukannya sidak kenal aku...no idea~

13.Do you believe you truly only love once?

=maybe,perhaps...i just go with the flow~life is too hard to predict...huhu..

14.Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died, would you get re-marry?
=no.

15.Do you believe in love at first sight?

=no idea..

16.What song do u want to be played at your wedding?

=i hand it to my future hubby la..hahahaha....

Exam paper mandarin ari towk...huhuhu..

Exam paper mandarin ari towk...huhuhu...teruk na juak..ku langsung xtauk mok jawab apa...[erps!!! not just aku,malah ramai lg x taw nk jawab] ahhhahaha...bukannya x blaja..tp xtaw..apa yg diajar n kami blaja lgsung x kuar pun...uhhuhu...sodeh ini...so wat we plan is to tiru..ahhahaha...tp kan..bukan salah kami...pengawas ari ini pun senyap jer..buat x nampak ja,sporting~mereka pun tau yg paper nih susah..uhuhu..yay!!! rasa mcm x exam ja...mcm buat latihan yg selama ini kami x taw apa ntah..hhahahaha!!! ~selama ini pun aku dah penah ponteng 3 kelas mandarin, and byk kali dtg setengah waktu kuliah ja n selebihnya aku n geng cabut larik senyap2 masa lecturer x perasan...huhu~teruk bah perange..hihihi~what to do..

KOQ activities..

yeah...pas kawad tek posing~haha

Group Mun~anak2 murid aku..ahha~

anak2 murid aku y nakal~after LDK..

Opening session with students..

28 April 2009, [Saturday]
KOQ-Pembangunan Masyarakat IV...tis year kmek org polah aktiviti yang lain cikit dr berlakon n pembentangan,hahaha...mala jak yakoh dr sem2 gik aktiviti yang sama huhu...tp kali tok lain kit...yet very enjoyable..hahaha...kmek org disuruh g carik sebuah sekolah rendah berdekatan n anjurkan aktiviti utk daknya...kmek org group 4A dibahagikan pada 4 group kecik gik..n pilih la kmek org tek SK Seremban A..aku tek bergroup ngn Izah...hehehe..kmek org rancang mcm2 LDK utk sesi kmek org...ceramah-bosan la budak2...hehe...tp kmek org bg kuiz,alu suka la tek mbiak ney gaya dpt hadiah ba...hahaha...pasya~kmek org adakan LDK-mbiak diuji minda,ketahanan mental,kreativiti n mcm2 gik lah...tp kids nowaday,they're very bright n intelligent enough to do whatever they are asked for...hebat sih...kagum..hahahaa...
tapi..tis year adalah sem terakhir kami bersama KOQ...huhuhu~sik ada KOQ gik sem depan koh~sodeh...huhu...

My niece..Stacy..

cute huh?! masa tok nya bauk jak 1 mggu..hehe..such an adorable girl..muah..

Ranch Rush.

I dont judge people..I just hate the way they treat themself..gosh~

Some people are selfish,stingy, arrogant n a slanderer..stupid kind of people..perasan bagus la nya tek..huh!! apakah?? they are so arrogant wit what they have,what they've done..just like they are so perfectly made..what?! ada aku heran? that kind of attitude doesnt mean anything to me..n i'm not intend 2 judge you,just to make myself clear..i'm not going to pleased and plead you,get of my life..plz? i'm too, not a perfect human beings in general, but i try to understand people around me as much as i want them to understand me..but it's getting harder and harder when i realised that nobody is perfect...some are pretending like they care, but the fact is..they just dont care, what the point of taking care of people when you..yourself are being neglected!! Some people just take their close friends,family and what so ever relationships for granted..but they'll cried their heart out when they lose them..life is a short journey my dear..you may not know your destiny..but you can make full of yourself..not being a fool..bonggok!! If you think you are so good being unrealistic person, hantuk kepala kat dinding..then you'll realize how much you have your wire-short...being stingy is also not a good attitude..but a waste of money? do you know how much you spend on yourself,but then when you are no longer interested on the stuffs [what so on..the things might be..], you're just wasting..kan? so what's wrong if you give it to someone who is in need? you will see how much they'll appreciate for just a little things..so what's the point of being stingy? and owh~what is so good about you speaking wit great pride..trying to impress people wit your untrue life stories,huh?!..like i care..i'm not a stupid believer which you can dominate..never!! Grow up la you..dont be such an idiot..doesnt cost you anything pun if you become humble..where got people so perfect..even in any religion..but what more can we do..only to try to become what we are..be honest with yourself..bluffing others is the same like you're bluffing yourself..I'm NOT judging you my dear..just give some thought about tis post will you~

I got tis tagged..nyee~

01 Name :
:: ruth marin

02 Sex :
::female.

03 Email address :
::ruthgm87@yahoo.com

04 Birthdate :
::oct 13,1987.

05 Family :
::7 family members included me.

06 Height :
::152cm..

07 Weight :
::i've been putting on so much weight lately...now it's about 56kg..hihu~

08 Something good about yourself :
::i love and care about my family and friends..

09 Something bad about yourself :
::i dont forgive people easily..

10 Describe your personality in one word :
::rational

11 Celebrities that you like :
::oprah winfrey~i have my own reason for that..

12 Songs you like :
::any nice songs will do...hehe~

13 Fav. Season :
::holiday's season..yeay~

14 Game you’re good at :
::hmmm....

15 My ideal woman or man :
::my father~

16 If you have to choose between same age/older/younger?
::i'm crossing the bridge when i've reach for it...

17 Your mood right now :
::sleepy..zzzz

18 What you have in your pocket right now :
::nothing.

19 Sleeping out :
::nah...

20 Alcohol tolerance :
::i dont take any alcohol my entire life...

21 Drinking habits :
::i drink coke a lot~hahaha..also a drink what!! :)

22 How old were you the first time you drank :
::pergh~havent i said that i dont take any alcohol..meaning~ i dont drank la..

23 When do you want to get married :
::now..can kah?hahaha...m 22 what?huhu..

24 About my singing :
:: i sing for my own satisfaction..hihi~

25 About my dancing :
::i dont dance..

26 Something I want these days :
::i want money..lots of money..hahahahahaha..

27 When you’re home alone :
::im trying 2 reach for my friends n asking them 2 makan2 wit me..haha..

28 When you’re standing in front of the mirror :
:: i feel grateful of being me..thank God!muahz..

29 Clothes you’re wearing right now :
::ne no ne no..

30 How much money do you have in your wallet :
::dont ever ask me how much..cos i wont tell u..

31 What you want to buy for your girlfriend/boyfriend :
::i've a lots of ideas in my mind..haha~

32 Does height matter to you :
::sometimes.....im more concern about my weight..huhu~

33 What song do you sing when you go to sing karaoke :
::hmmmm... no idea..

34 What would you do if you had plans with your friend but they never showed up: ::i end up sleeping..hahaha..

35 What would you do if the person you loved cheated on you :
::diam jer la..i have God to do His work..cos someday somehow..they'll pay for what they have done..so better watch out!!!!

36 How long will you be able to wait for the person you love :
::forever..selagi nyawa dikandung badan..

37 First kiss :
::done wit 1st kiss..next...!!!haha~

38 A feature you feel doesn’t need to be fixed :
::my heart~ no reason!!!

39 Feature you feel should be fixed :
::my tummy...it's getting boroi..London slim world plz?..

40 People you miss the most right now :
::my daddy n mummy..my HT..

41 First love :
::u know oreD..kan...haha~

42 When you cried the most :
::i need a space to breath...

43 When do you feel you’re grown up :
::now..

44 What you don’t like :
::hmmm...if i dont have enough money...

45 When you felt happy :
::i smile a lot n alone..haha~

46 When you were most flabbergasted :
::of cos la muka terperanjat..xkan nak ketawa kot...

47 Best looking person of the opposite gender you’ve seen so far :
::hmm.. :?

48 Why aren’t you going out with anyone :
::i often go out la wit my friends...apakah?

49 What you feel towards that person :
::kan2..who's tat person?

50 What would you say to the people actually reading this?
::u've been tagged!!!~

51 Something you’re most worried about :
::my weight..huhu~

52 When do you look most weak :
::i will rest for the whole day.

53 How do you NOT get dumped:
::buat bodo sudah..hahha~

54 3 things a person NEEDS :
::air...food..water..

55 Your grades in school :
::high grades

56 #1 on your phone :
::ayau

57 Phone company :
::ne no ne no..

58 Phone bill :
::prepaid la ngok~

59 Place you want to go :
:: i love going places...name it n give me money..then i go la..hahha~

60 Favorite TV program :
::Charmed Ones...n byk2 lg...

61 Movie that pissed you off :
::hmmmm....yg x ada motif punya cerita...

62 Movie you watched with most meaning :
::the passion of christ.yups2...love it!!

63 Most recent movie watched :
::sifu & tongga~huhhu..

64 Movie you want to recommend :
::tgok la sdri..

65 If you could become a character inside a movie :
::nah~nonsence....

66 How many net cafes are you a member to :
::none..

67 Which do you go to most often :
::....perghh..not interested la..

68 What you feel about this cafe? :
::no idea nk feel apa...

69 What you want to say to the starter of the cafe? :
::m saying nothing...gulp!! why should i?

70 You believe it is okay to marry someone else to save the person that you love : ::pergh..what a nonsence...not worthwhile!! plz la....

71 What would you do if your parents didn’t bless your decision to get married : ::why do u care...huh?

72 Do you think you’re a player :
::player pa? badminton kah?hahha..

73 What time do you wake up :
::depends....

74 When you go to sleep :
::normally i wash my face..my feet..baring2 n berangan jap..then bru fall asleep..

75 If someone you met for the first time asked for your number :
::.what num? specify it 2 me plz?hahha~buat bodo jer..pandai la daknya malu kedirik lak...hahaha..seronok make fun ngn org tok..hehe...

76 What would you do if you liked someone at a meeting :
::i dont dare 2 talk wit them..malu weh..

77 Celebrity you want to go out with :
::not worthwhile...bukannya bg aku duit pun..hahha~

78 How many kids do you want :
::4 maybe..2 girls 2 boys..yeay~ mok anak....

79 Something you really want to be good at :
::a good citizen,a good daughter, a good frenz, a good wife, a good mother, a good granny(hihi)...etc.

80 What I want to be in 10 years :
::a very successful woman

81 Someone you’re jealous of right now :
::pada2 la...hihu~

82 A word that you use a lot :
::pergh~ dunno why? pengaruh kot..hahaha...

83 What I do when I first wake up :
::take bath....

84 What would you do if you picked up a million dollars :
::no idea..starring 8 the money maybe..

85 What would you do if you became invisible :
::curi2 masok flight..n go on vacation..hahha~

86 Singer you think is the best singing live :
::sapa eyh...

87 Singers you don’t understand why they even sing :
::dunno..

88 A kind of man you don’t like :
::hypocrite , a liar n etc.

89 A kind of woman you don’t like :
::beautifull with no brain...useless creature in the world!! menyemak jak...

90 What would you do if you found someone you love more than the person you’re dating right now :
::confuse la i...never been through..no idea!!

91 What would you feel if you met someone you’ve broken up with :
::no idea..

92 Most important possession :
::my word..sometimes it does hurt people..so guys..get use 2 it okeh!!

93 What you do when you first get online :
::sign in my yahoo messenger. yeay~

94 What surprised you the most :
::to know that i have a bunch of people that love me the way i am...

95 What you do when you can’t fall asleep :
::wake up n start online...

96 What do you think you were in your past life :
::an innocent..huhu~

97 If you were to be born again :
:: i wish i were..but m not...

98 What are you going to do after you finish this :
::kuliah la apa gik...ngok juak~

99 How honest were you :
::judge me...

100 What do you want to say :
::penat...i've been tagged by tis Jenny..so many questions lor~

p/s : I tagged :

1. ayau
2. mariati
3. jenny
4.n those who read this.

Famili..ku syurgaku..

Daddy~ Mr. Marin Sahar

My mummy..a beautifull mum..love her a lot

Ridianie Marin~ the eldest princess.

Hhehe..tis is me la..the 2nd

Tiffany Marin~the third princess in the family

Ruzy Marin~the fourth princess in the family..

Heassler Marin..the one n only boy..hehehe..he's the youngest n the most MANJA..uhh!!

Friend in need is a friend in deed

posing..posing..we love it..

Daniel..comel..hehe..a chinese ,outspoken person,hmm..apalagi..kind-hearted too..terer masak..lepas masak adala dia panggil kami makan..his favourite,laksa sarawak...hehe

Linda..a Kedah girl,very softspoker(kat kelas jer laa..)..hehe..she love to spend her time sleeping..omg..hehe..a very generous,kind-hearted n caring..our favourite pastime together is playing badminton..terer wooo dia...hehe

Tis beautifull energetic girl is Sorhairul Zamzila..nick~ELLE...she's one of my housemate,a very funny person...she loved to dance..n mariah carrie is her favourite singer..

Izah Cute..that's what we call her..she cute almost in every part of her..love to laugh,a good student n cute..u'll love her when u know her..She's also a sarawakian,a malay, bidayuh n jawa mix..n she love almost everything in pink..n a big fan of Hello Kitty n japanese korean taiwan drama n all sort of yang berkaitan dengannya..hehe..

Adeline Belayau Ak. Lang..in short is Ayau..the most adorable n beautifull..hehe..an iban native, who is from Kapit,Sarawak..preety good as a soft speaker(able to persuade people), a good companian,my roomate,trustworthy,friendly n a caring person..she's great..love her..yes!! I do..:)

IKA (in white~T),Ayau(the cutie..) n Stanely~the ngegeh guy..hehhe..Ika is one of my housemate..very easy-going person,very outspoken..n very loud..hehehe...she have a good voice almost in anything~singing,on call n while talking..she just love to shout out loud..hehehe..She love to dress in pink coz she love her stuff to be in pink~omg...Stanely..is the most ngegeh guy on earth..hehe,he like 2 praise himself~siap puji diri comel(layak ker??)..haha..very good at singing, his dream is to join AF..gbu stan..may your dream comes true..

Didi..the full name is Mohd Redzuan,have 2 admit that he is a she..hehehe..but he is a very generous n great frenz..eventhough he is different n not as maskulin as a guy should be but i respect him..he used to help me a lot ever since we met..

My cousin ,Duison engagement

arrived at the bride's kpg..

the kampung view..

at ruai..

my uncle and aunt

future father n mother in-law

Duison puts on his wife an engagement ring..

yellow cake..naahh

here kuci2..so sweet..

it's time for photo shoots..hehe

hot mama..rocking herself

my grandma..also very energetic that night..

my sis perform her best dance 4 the 1st n the last time..hihi..

kena paksa minum liqour..trying to avoid tis datuk..aaa

posing with liqour tis budak2 hingusan...hebat!! hehe...

aram meh bertandak..


27/12/2008 was a meaningfull day for my cousin, Duison....the ceremony was held at Kpg. Batuh Mawang,Serian Sarawak..it was a simple but a very pleasant ceremony,we enjoy ourself very much that day..

Sometimes..Jokes can be a deadly game!! Beware..

As we all know.,somehow we need to brighten our day with laughter n jokes...life wont be more beautiful if we keep on the same old-flat talks..but somehow..some people dont simply know how to appriciate this precious art of love n understanding..how come we know the better part of people if we always think negatively about them..cheer up n face it even if u feel down!! Joke is some kind of communication,a friendly communication...but if we misunderstand it,then it will be a killer to our relationship with other..sometimes,people get excited to perform their best jokes, some trying to fix their ideas, mix it up n blend it beautifully just to make it fun n exciting to be heard...so for all you joker out there beware with your jokes...bcoz some people might not like it..n beware to be a victim of calumny ~ else u might get hurt too...huhu..honestly..from my opinion, i dont like sensitive people with unsensitive self enthusiasm..they think they are cool but they're not, they hardly acquaint to accept opinion from the others,they just want to be perfect..If you are this type of person,have this lesson then..you are not growing up as a person but as a coward..if you think you are everything..then build your own universe and owh...jokes remain jokes..but if you dont like it..get off..my world!!!! I also born with a sensitive feeling..like you all..but sometime we have to know our limit..limit to become sensitive n to joke with the sensitive people..for a fragile-hearted person you just need to deal with the person who hurt you,confront them,tell them what you have been through,what you feel about their jokes..dont make it so hard to you..bcos you are not helping yourself..

My name in Mandarin version...

nama dlm mandarin..mmg lucu..haha..mine,from Ruth Marin became "Lu De Ma Lin" wahuhu..funny to know that..hehe

Contest at miraie2713@yahoo.com

Hahahaha...weird contest...yet very funny..tibe2 je tercetus ide kawan2 seperjuangan nak buat contest yg x seberapa nih...tujuannya utk mencari "the cutest people" in the world la konon2 nya...but it is just for fun..nothing harmfull..nothing violent..just for fun...tp org malaysia berjiwa sensitif sikit..so harap2 la tak ada yang ambil hati,kecil hati, makan hati,hati batu,hati2 lah...hehe...biasalah..

I neeD more money...to survive!! hhuuu~

hhuu~sad version of me..life without money is hopeless..some people might say,that money is not important as there is love in the air..nonsense!! apala~boleh blah la..xda duit mana dpt hidup..try me..As money is very much important 2 me~saya gunakannya secara maksimum(..itu baru kepuasan,hahaha!!) Now..m living in the world of debts..huahua..padan muka,serve me right..i have this MARA loan..and with it I make a lot of..pelaburan kepada hutang..whawaa..now i have this financal problem,baru je sem nih blaja finance(WFF 1013)...fuh..malas la cerita..see me in next post..haha..

My Xmas moments~

Cuzzies~1st row: Felilee, Livoony, Bibien Eva, Ally n Russell
2nd row; Dozelee, Sophia, Wewen n Eflin

mY beloved Sumuk..

Xmas with Sumuk...

wow...panggang..with my little bro, Heassler,cuz'n Denzel n Hansel

Trip 2 Kpg. Semadang

Tsing tao..Seagar's favourite~hehe

the Best of us~cuzzies

cuz'n Jojo n Ally best possing 4 xmas