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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

U have my forgiveness..

Bad things happen..and so it happened to me too..the incident was unforgettable,i was a little kid back then,and was on primary 3(if i'm not mistaken)..i do my study at kampung at that time,this tragedy takes part in the evening,my mum was doing her cooking while my father wandered around the yard with my youngest brother..me, my sisters and two of my cousin were taking a bath at the river near our house.Suddenly,my other cousin,who was drunk,rushed into the house and destroyed almost everythings inside the house.He was terribly out of control..he ran into my mum and gave her a hard slap,then he tried to get the parang.My mum became so panic and ran into the road,tried to seek for some help,she even asked my aunty nearby to find us..dad was also at the scene at that time but he didnt know what actually happened..until he entered the house and saw the mess,it was a great schocked when my cousin suddenly came up with the parang in his hand and ran after my father..he even said that he will kill my father,and he really meant it..regardless his fear,my father ran and ran with all his strength until he reached the road(our kampung house have a large yard)...he was saved by the lorry driver who took him for police report..that is not the end of the incident because we are still at river at that time..we even heard the srceaming sound of the chaos,me and my sister ridianie went nearer to see what actually happen,we can saw a lots of people stopped by to watch the incident and tried to help..most of them were our relatives.. we even saw my cousin tried to drown his wife ,who was trying to stop him,into a deep river.i can see that my cousin eyes were full of anger,and i dont understand why..until now,..what make him act that way with my parent who had raised him since he was a small kid..(he was an orphan when he was still a small kid and her mum was my dad's elder sister)..hmmm..i can see a lots of changes in him when he got married,he became an alcoholic and often outburst his anger to everyone around him..i guess he wanted to kill my father because my dad didnt want to lend him some money to fulfill his alcohol need..so here i am..growing up with a fear of alcoholic,i still remember how my little brother got sick after the incident and i am still wondering,how did he managed to run from the chaos??he wasnt with us nor with my mother,weird kan??even my father had ran for his life without him..tiba2 je sampai rumah nenek tgok dia ada dah..huhu..masa my mum dia tolong jaga my cousin dua org..Russell and Hansel..Russell was still a baby that time..hmmm..The incident was about 13 years, and still fresh in my mind..my cousin did seek for forgiveness from my parents but they refused to forgive him,quite hard for them i guess.but for me, i just want to forget all of it..what past is past..i know that both of my parents cant forgive him..but deep inside they love him so much..its been 13 years for granted..my cousin already had his condemnation..since the incident ,me and my family heard that lots of bad things happen to him..God did do His work..and i guess that's it..let God do his work..i wish that someday..my parents will forgive him..and i also wish that God let him out from the pain he suffered for such a long time..Please God...Hear me!!

6 comments:

j3n m@ri@n said...

what a sad post ruth..

Ruth Marin said...

huhu..mmg sad pun..tragedi hitam ya bah dlm famili aku..aku x fhm apa smenanya manusia tok mauk..huhu..mun ingt gik smua ya i feel like wanna cry..aku gik kecik time ya tp ku gik ingt rentetan peristiwa nya bah..tp..skrg aku try to forgive n forget..

j3n m@ri@n said...
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j3n m@ri@n said...

ruth..forgive is easy to say but to forget is so hard..u noe what i mean kan?
eventho we forgive that person but y is it so hard for us to forget all d bad memories? i know how u feel gal..juz be strong and forgive is d bez way..and ask to God so that everything will fade away..
:HUGS~

Anonymous said...

aku pun sama...sikpa...suma ya baru jak test before final exam dari tuhan...aku hear you lah tuk...ilek2...

Ruth Marin said...

har3..atie2..syg u..